Music.

"Music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy." Ludwig van Beethoven.

Music IS a higher power. It speaks to the soul and through the soul. It brings you back to either joyous memories or heartbreaking ones. I could not live without music. I sing everyday and I always have. With that being said, I am not the best singer. But I absolutely love it. Music has been engrained into my mind ever since I was young. It is not only a piece of my life, but it is apart of me. I can listen to a piece of music and feel so much. It truly soothes me. It is a special and unique cure for pain, that no amount of medicine can touch or heal. Maybe not physical pain- but emotional and mental pain. I could listen to the song, "New American Classic" by Taking Back Sunday, over and over, and feel as though my mind, body, and soul is completely relaxed and serene. Each time I listen to it, I focus my mind on a particular instrument. Ahh, it is beautiful. And only music can do that. Excuse me, any art form, can do that. At least for me.

I am so thankful to say that I am learning to play the guitar as a form of better expression of myself- my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, my experiences.

I will continue to play and sing and enjoy and listen, until I physically cannot play, sing, or listen anymore. But I will always enjoy- until the very end.

Change

So much changes. Time changes. Seasons  change. Weather changes. Style changes. Perspective changes. Passion changes. Stories change. Life changes. People change. 

People change who once used to be so close to you- now distant. In the past being so young and so innocent, carrying their beliefs tightly as if they were tucked away inside a secret compartment within a backpack- now changed. Gone four months and people change astronomically. People influence people. And people change.  Some change for the better. Some- the worse.

I changed.

This year alone, I changed in a way that is hard for me to explain. From once a semi-outgoing young girl, I have changed into a more confident version of myself. Every experience, every encounter with every individual imprinted something valuable on my life and changed me. My values have stayed the same. I have stayed the same. But I changed. I evolved. And I can honestly say- I really like where I am.

Acting Headshots

The Fault In Our Stars

The best novel I have ever read. Within it holds every quality that I could ever want in a novel. Humor, romance, heartache, happiness. Hazel Grace's sarcastic personality is ever so captivating and Augustus Waters' metaphorically driven charm compliments and enhances the best in Hazel. 

Below are some of my favorite quotes from the novel. So many more, but not enough space.

Hazel Grace: "I fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once."

Augustus Waters: "I want to see you again tonight. But I'm willing to wait all night and much of tomorrow."

Augustus Waters: "You put the killing thing right between your teeth, but you don't give it the power to do its killing."

Augustus Waters: "Because you're beautiful. I enjoy looking at beautiful people, and I decided a while ago not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence."

Peter Van Houten: "Were she better or you sicker, then the stars would not be so terribly crossed, but it is the nature of stars to cross."

Hazel Grace: "You're arguing that the fragile, rare thing is beautiful simply because it is fragile and rare."

Hazel Grace: "Easy comfort isn't comforting."

Augustus Waters: "I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you."

Augustus Waters: "The marks humans leave are too often scars."

Augustus Waters: "But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love. I got my wish, I suppose. I left my scar." 

Diseased Family.

8 years old
in Annapolis

But you didn't have a clue
We could have kept you
closer
We tried
They wouldn't let you

La Plata.

Weekends I'd come and visit
With my brother and my mom
I'd open your bed side table
And steal a stick of gum

Big Red.

Remember once I sat there
Crying on your bed
I brought the stuffed animal you gave me
Engrained those words you said

Puffy.

I still wear your wristband
Reminds me of my loss
I know I'll see you someday
Our diseased family.
We can see an end.

Father.

Italy.

Italy. My future home to be. I am amazed that different parts of the world can hold such magnificent beauty. Maybe my Italian roots are showing. Or maybe I want to know more about myself and where my previous ancestors came from. I am not sure. What I do know is that this place has been the single most tempting piece of land to explore and live. Someday.

The Life of an Actress.

I am on the best road of my life. A journey. I am driving to an unknown territory that I have dreamed about for years. I was eight years old when I decided to become an actress. An actress I will be. It is going to take passion, dedication, courage, confidence, and perseverance. And I am so ready for it.